♥~ Monday, November 23, 2009 ~♥
... uh oh~ ...
arghh...
the past few days have all been about tcp1241 - computer programming 2
m(_ _)m
first the project discussion
i thought the coding's almost done
but we are still behind
there are lots of things missing(?)
and eventhough some people think that the subject is pretty easy
it's pretty tough for me
i hate theory part of programming
i just like diving in head first
never really cared how deep or shallow the whole thing is
i just want to have the hands on experience without knowing the facts first
which is... my bad
it is important to understand the theory concepts and all before coding the programming
and... yes... i am stubborn
i refuse to
the theory part is like tangled up in my head
i can't figure out which is which anymore
sighhh~
and today
the worse thing happened
it made me cringed and felt like... urmm...
i was helping heng leng to study for the midterm tomorrow
and i made a mistake that even i don't know about
sighhh~
how in the world...
do you know that when you have a pointer *p of type class point pointing to a dynamic array with the size 2
the class function of that pointer is simply p[i].function()?
just like a normal array??
and not this way: p[i]->function()?...
do you know that?...
well... i didn't
i always thought that it's p[i]->function()
m(_ _)m
why am i beating myself hard over this?
because i almost made a huge mistake
not knowing about it is one thing
but to teach someone else a wrong thing is another
if it was only i
i won't be going on and on about it
>.<
it seems to me that programming is all that i've been blogging about lately
aqeelah has started calling me the programming geek
uwahhh~! i don't want to be a programming geek
i am happy to be any other kind of geek
but not a programming geek
why?
heck... i have no idea
i've found my happy place~
(^_^)
just out of the blue
and totally random
i am loving pi's new single!!!
the first time i heard it... it was like "wth?"
but now i am addicted
just like i'm addicted to k.will's love 119
i've been listening to both songs on repeat
>.<
is that enough to describe my total obsession over the songs?
another lengthy post from me~
(^_^)
p/s:
don't ask about the pictures
someone's been complaining that i haven't been posting pictures of myself
much love,
bahiyahnor
Labels: fangirling, photo, random scribbling, yamapi
♥~ Saturday, November 21, 2009 ~♥
... of badminton and tcp1241 ...
tired
flat tired
could it be?
been awhile
さしぶり！
i've been wanting to blog the whole week
but it was pretty hectic
here's what happened the passed week
1. i screwed up my tcp1241 and photosynthesis quizzes - they were not that hard... but carelessness... =.="
2. no volleyball practice --> rain took it away
3. borrowed a ball from the coach to practice serving and digging, but had no time to practice
4. i found out that i am very dry - i haven't been drinking much water lately
5. i overcame the phobia of public toilets
6. tutored heng leng database (O.O)
7. debugged the tcp1241 project
8. played badminton and actually enjoyed it (^_^)v
looking back
i did lots of things that i normally don't
weird, isn't it?
i have to get back to my routine exercise
swimming has been put on hold since the rainy season started
and i have to renew my membership at the clubhouse...
rain rain go away!!
i want my sun again!!!
>.<
rainy season's going to make me fat~
uwahh.... fat fat go away!!
i've got to start studying
tcp1241 midterm next week
=.="
much love,
bahiyahnor
Labels: random scribbling
♥~ Tuesday, November 17, 2009 ~♥
... nope... not going to give up~ ...
i'm smiling again~
arigatou...
(^_^)
------
sometimes i need to look beneath the surface
dig deeper
and find what it is that i am missing
things will never be as easy as i want them to be
i can't run away
no matter how crazy it gets
no matter how tough it's going to be
no matter how lonely i'd become
i'm going to stand here
just like i've promised you
あいしてるよ～
ほんとうに
あいしてるよ
saranghae...
much love,
bahiyahnor
Labels: happy, korean, music, relationships, video
♥~ Monday, November 16, 2009 ~♥
... can i be honest? ...
i'm lonely
even if i am surrounded by hundreds of people
i am sad
even if i am wearing a smile on my face
i am
really
really
really
am
i am lonely
and i am sad
shall i blame the weather?
i want to go back to those five seconds
when i was smiling from ear to ear
all that he had to do was make me feel safe
because right now
no matter how hard i try to deny it
the truth is
i am insecure
me.so.sad.
Labels: relationships, sad
♥~ Sunday, November 15, 2009 ~♥
... bogoshipo ...
what i want is
to be able to sing
to be able to smile
to be able to laugh
to be able to dance
and not think of you
because
right now
thinking of you hurts me the most
because
right now
loving you hurts me the most
so
give me this one chance
to walk down the streets and not think of those times when we used to walk together
to listen to the love songs and not think of the moments when you used to sing to me
to pick up the camera and not think of those moments when you used to pose for me
to read the love stories and not become jealous of the characters in the book
because
as of this moment
my heart is aching
it is tearing apart
it is crying
-------
i've got to work things out
i need to remember my smile
i need to laugh
really laugh
because i've forgotten that smile
and my laugh
mend this heart of mine
please~
much love,
bahiyahnor
Labels: relationships, sad
... of tcp1241 project and more chips in chipsmore?? ...
sunday
it's supposed to be the day i love the most
but suppose today's not going to be one
i have to start revising soon
photosynthesis quiz on thursday
i hope mr lin will not hold the oxidative phosphorylation quiz on thursday too
i'll surely collapse if he does
heng leng, mei leng and i are almost done with our tcp1241 project
left bits here and there
hopefully we can get a few things straightened out by the end of this week
** does anyone knows how to copy data from different objects of different classes in c++? **
we coded everything yesterday
but there's one line in the 400+ line codes that has to be debugged
but the thing is
i have no idea what in the world is wrong with that line
=.="
and then there are the flow chart and algorithm design for the report
*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*
it's a short semester
and it's killing me
everything has been doubled up
>.<
this is totally random and out of topic
i just watched one of kanjani's can!jani episodes
and in this particular episode
they get to meet 'tatyana-san'
a russian lady
and...
as weird as it may seem to anyone out there
as it is weird to me
there's this whole nostalgic feeling swooping over me when i heard her talking in russian to another person on the phone
weird??... yes!
totally...
and... after almost a year not talking the language
i can understand each word that she said
>.<
anyone wants to start talking in russian with me again?
maybe i should keep in touch with that part of my life
руский язык (did i spell that correctly?) -> i studied the language for 2 years of my life in moscow
and yes... i hated the language
'cause of all the padesh-es and the grammar-grammar thing
somehow i doubt that i can still speak the language
>.<
***why in the world am i talking about russian language????***
it's killing me
short semester
>.<
much love,
bahiyahnor
Labels: random scribbling
♥~ Friday, November 13, 2009 ~♥
... of masamune & koharu ...
i love papa aiba~!!!
(^_^)v
i can never get enough of aiba-chan as a father
haha...
and so...i coded a new template~
and since i love this part where masamune and koharu shared the same scarf
the still shot becomes the header for this template
the whole thing is cute!~~
-> i mean the drama
koharu is adorable...
hehehe
and papa aiba~
i could never imagine him as a father
because he's always the playful one in arashi
but the role as kazama masamune fits him perfectly~
anyways
to download the template
leave a comment if you need help to change anything
(^_^)
much love,
bahiyahnor
Labels: aiba, arashi, fangirling, template
... faraway land ...
it's a very subtle friday afternoon
i want to go out
go anywhere
just not here
i watched '2012' yesterday
and to be honest
it was worth it
eventhough we ended up with very bad seats
the two front rows were the only ones available
i enjoyed the movie despite the ache in my neck
the idea of dooms day and running to save ourselves deemed stupid in my eyes
because if it is dooms day
how do you expect to save yourself?
if god wants everything to end
who are we to say that it shouldn't?
my younger sister and i got talking about this after we've seen the movie
and i supposed it all comes down to what we believe in
to our faith
to what we hold on to
there are some people that i know put science and religion as two different things
they said that science is science
and religion is religion
the two has nothing to do with each other
where else i believe differently
to me
science and religion are entwine with each other
because science in any way is god's knowledge
what he wants to share with us
every single, tiny, little part of science belongs to him
and it is his way to let us know how everything works in this world
and eventhough lots of people want to believe other wise
there are still limitations to science
they can say that it will take years till we can discover how the brain works
they can say that it will take years before we can actually land on jupiter
to me... those are the limitations of the science
the limitations of human mind
even a genius cannot figure out how the brain works
sure... he can come out with tonnes of theories
just like how scientists tried to explain the origin of life
but... they are just theories
no one really knows
like i said - limitations of science
maybe lots of you do not agree with me
but who cares, right?
i mean... i have my pole that i hold strongly too
you have yours...
so... we don't have to share
after watching '2012'
it made me think
how humane are we actually?
there are some people out there might think that i am naive
because i tend to only see the good things and not realising the reality of the situation
in war or natural disaster
if there is only a ship that can save everyone's life
i want to believe that everyone will help each other to get onto the ship
i want to believe that everyone will get to be on the ship
but i guess... that's not what really going to happen, right?
'cause there are bound to be bloodshed
fightings of who should be on the ship
there may be some that are willing to sacrifice themselves to save others
but how many heroes are we talking about in real life?
will the drug lord give up his place on the ship for a mother and two children?
will the power-hungry politicians make sure that their people are on the ship and save?
and will there be any fightings over rations - food and necessities?
will the spoilt rich brat be happy with half a bread for dinner?
will he try to grab someone else's share?
even i don't really know what i would do
because i've been born into a world that is perfect
into a bubble that keep me safe from the hard and harsh world
i know not the meaning of starvation
i know not the meaning of poverty
so... it is very hard to imagine a world outside of this bubble
anyhow
if you know that the end is near
what would you do?
i suggest think of redemption
because running will get you no where
much love,
bahiyahnor
Labels: random scribbling
♥~ Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ~♥
... 约定 ...
说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了
我想他会告诉你的
你会记得我们的约定
听着风我也笑了
-------
i am suddenly feeling all... mushy?
hurmm...
try being in my shoes
then you'll understand what i'm going through
闭上眼等你的出现
p/s:
the whole thing is in chinese
so don't try to read it as japanese kanji
=.="
and owh... it's a song
much love,
bahiyahnor
... of arashi's my girl ...
